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Another house I found in FL

I found another house in FL that IM just inlove with. IM not so inlove with the outside of the house, but the entire inside has been completely re-modeled and I love that. It's address is also 'honeysuckle' and i Love that too! Check it out!

Almost forgot! We're moving to FL!

So this Niceville, FL and a beautiful house we found out there (and in our price range) which makes me so happy! I love the house! but here's a few for you to check out too! :)

and UPDATE?! OMG!!!

Well I haven't blogged in quite some time, but thanks to my awesome blog designer Kotryna Bass her e-mail address  it's got a fresh new look and I think IM gonna post a thing or two. :) She has quite the awesome blog herself! and designers for others (and extremely affordable, and did I mention so helpful?) What a kind and genuine girl she is. Etsy Design Website for anyone who's interested. :)

So this afternoon Drew and I went to the Weiner Schnitzel in town on Main Street and I picked myself up the most delicious chocolate dipped ice cream cone and then of course shared the ice cream with the schnauzer when I got home (after all the chocolate was gone.) and THEY loved it! 

 I've been feeling a little bit better these days and getting my strength back, feel like the steroids are finally settling in and my body is adapting to it. IM starting to enjoy little things again, spending time with my family, my dogs, husband and watching movies. Enjoying my life again (this is good, right?)

 Oh and these are my two favorite's EVER! My husband and then Mac (he's my number one dog. This dog never leaves my side, EVER! He's the best thing ever!!! I love him to the moon and back! 

 OOH and my friend Bethany (i've been helping her out with photographer lately, because she just picked it up and she got me this lens mug as a thank you present. It totally made my dad! Such a thoughtful gift! I love her!

 Lets not forget, the most amazing man in my life. We've been through hell and back, but I learned something - those who go through this much SHIT and still come out strong, I think we're in it for good. He loves me and I love him and that's it! The last 5 years are in the past and that's where they need to stay so from this point forward, we're gonna work on what matters. Love, happiness, paying off debt so we can enjoy eachother in FL and enjoy time with our dogs. We've got this! And I couldn't do it with Drew by my side. I love him so much. forever and ever!

ooh hello life

I've been sick for about two weeks straight and I've had enough of it. GO AWAY whatever you are.  Clovis has been having nasty dust storms lately and I couldn't imagine that's helping me at all. My mood hasn't been the best either. I had my Mirena put in last week (Thursday) to be exact and i've been irritated and edgy since it was placed, it's low hormone and it's directly into the uterus, so I don't think it would effect my 'mental' mood as a pill would, but I guess anything is possible. I feel like I've made some huge strides forward and now IM just chugging backwards, I hate this feeling. I feel like IM going back into a depression slump again and those are so hard to come out of. 

I dropped my iPhone in the back tub last week (put it in a bowl of rice and it seemed to work just fine) but now it's doing little things like randomly powering down, starting facetime conversations with people I didn't initiate a conversation with and randomly turn ON (wasting battery) when I've got it turned OFF. UGH! LETS TOP IT OFF NOW SHALL WE... fell out of my sweater pocket this afternoon and it broke, crushed the front and back of the screen. :*( YAY for me! 

I miss my friends so much, my family, IM alone most the time and it sucks. I hate being so lonely all the time. I miss my family and my friends, but unfortunately I can't afford to take the time off work yet. IM just having a bad week or bad few weeks and it sucks. I'd like to fly back to AZ and surprise Alisha over Thanksgiving but I think we're going to go visit Drew's family in Vegas instead, haven't seen them in a year so IM looking forward to that too. So many people to see, so little time to do it in. 

My boss is coming out at the end of November to do a site visit and that gets my nerves going like crazy. I do a good job, but I always doubt myself, I always think IM going to get in trouble or something bad is going to happen (usually not the case, but my anxiety gets the best of me every time....  so I've been thinking about that a lot too.)

I was supposed to go to the Vendor Blender at the Masters Center today to try and sell some of my Jewel Kade jewelry, but I felt so horrible I didn't get out of bed and more than likely disappointed the person I was supposed to be hosting with (what's new though, right?) 

Cleaned the whole house on Friday and then Friday night it decides to rain, GO ME! The dogs have left muddy prints all over the house that was freshly cleaned. I just don't have the energy for anything anymore. I'd love more than anything to come off these damn steroids, they just ware me down to nothing, but without them the seizures start up again. Hoping we can start coming off the seizures and up on anti-seizure medication (because those don't affect me nearly as badly as the steroids do) but it all takes time. The weight gain SUCKS! At this time last year I weighed 115 I got on the scale at work on Friday and I weighed 135 - talk about pissing in my wheaties. 

Birthday just passed - Drew got me some beautiful flowers, a few sweaters and a chi straightener (that's because I had this brilliant idea to perm my hair and it looked HORRIBLE) so now I flat iron it every single day... which just means I have to wake up earlier and that blows. My friend Maria got me a coach purse because she's awesome, LOVE her. 

SCHNAUZERS! The four of them are doing great, no health issues (thank god, because we couldn't afford it right now even if they did) but they do need hair cuts...  hoping I can find the energy to do that next week.. 

OH and our house is attached to an association and they've decided to zero scape the yards, so that's another $2,000 that we don't have, investing in a house that I don't even want to keep. When we leave Clovis I don't ever and i mean EVER want to come back here. (it's been the hardest four years of my life) but yes, we have to zero scape the yard before we put it on the market and that blows. 

I think my phone is what's really bothering me right now, I just want a working phone. IM such a selfish spoiled little brat, but I want a working phone. :( 

I know this post was a total downer, but I guess it's just a reflection of my mood at the moment. IM down so my post will be down. 

Well just took an Ambien - heres to a good nights sleep (i hope).

Night all

Big News!

I haven't updated my blog in awhile, but lots of big news. We finally got orders out of Clovis - YES, this is really happening. Still can't believe it, but so excited. Originally it was December but pushed it back to May (balh, but it least I've got something to look forward to.) IM so excited! I just can't wait!  These are just two little homes that we're looking at (possibly buying) but who knows, maybe we'll end up renting. :)

 Big Iphone news. IT BROKE! ha so I completely replaced the one. It is now 'GREEN' as you can see in the image below.

 My very bestest friend Maria, she got me a Coach purse just because I was an awesome friends. (awe) blushing.

 Oh and Drew's belated birthday cake. He loved it.

Not even 9 months away!

My sister has been in town for about a month just hanging out with me, it's been the best month in a long time - I can already feel the sadness setting in, I know the next few days are going to be so difficult - just gotta deal with it I guess. :-\ 

Her fiance came to Clovis on Friday to pick her up and then they'll be driving back tomorrow, so we took her engagement photos - she's so beautiful and he (Steve) is just awesome! They fight like cats and dogs, but love each other so much - and what couple doesn't fight like cats and dogs who love each other so much? <3  IM going to miss you guys like crazy but IM so happy I was able to do this for you!

ps. we look nothing alike because we have different dads HA! :)